1/27/2014 post

I did not read Josh's post, but just seeing the title gave me so much insight on what I can write for this blog post. First of all, my comments are that I find the narrator to be SO NEGATIVE, which is personally bothering me... I try to be a very positive person and get rid of exactly (in a way) what goes through the narrator's mind. What I mean by these things are the pessimism, the feeling of superiority, the hating everyone, the cynicalness (if that is a word) that the narrator has... I think for a person to genuinely be happy, he/she has to find the good in everything or at least have positive thoughts that whatever is occurring at the moment will turn out well. The narrator sees the bad in everything and everyone immediately, and does not really let there be a chance for the good to emerge or even be noticed. I am not saying I do not judge anything, because I do -- we are all guilty of it, which is exactly one of the things the narrator pinpoints with his written thoughts, I just do not like it. I do not like the feeling of negativity the book gives me. Now, the reason why after I simply read Josh's title, everything clicked, is because the narrator shows a lot of characteristics that Raskolnikov has. Yesterday I wrote that I feel the narrator's character is that of one of those kids who goes to school and one day just randomly decides to shoot all of his classmates that bullied him. Raskolnikov did so with someone whom he just thought was not worthy of being in the world, and I see that the narrator in NFTU has kind of the same thoughts... maybe not to kill them, but they are just idle and have nothing there, which is why he considers himself superior.